I'm having a bit of a crisis. So, I got the job I thought I'd wated, but now I'm finding that I really miss the intellectual stimulation of academia. I've been at the new job for almost two months and there's definitely a huge learning curve here. I've gotten the hang of most of what I do (though I haven't worked an event yet) and while there are things I enjoy, I don't find it particularly stimulating to do mail merges, stuff envelopes, create payables, and call people for money. Admittedly, most of the people are nice and I periodically do get to interact with The Industry, but it's still not quite enough to make it all worth it. I guess the other thing is...my boss is a little nuts sometimes. I mean, she's very nice and I know she likes me, but she's also an intimidating person, and it can be hard to deal with.
Ev and I went on vacation at the begining of this month and I had an epiphany. I want to go back to grad school. I want to get my PhD in Religion. It's not that I miss being in school, but I miss religion and I miss having intellectual conversations and I just miss academia in general.
Of course, I haven't taken the GRE yet and haven't even started applying to schools yet. I was dreading going to work last week, but after this week I'm feeling a lot better. I was thinking about quitting at the beginning of this week, but things have imporved and I think I can stick it out until I get into school. I doubt my boss thinks I'll be here forever, but I don't want to disappoint her by giving up. I still want her respect and would love to work with her in the future.
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